The article reflects the author’s deep feelings of despair and uncertainty as they navigate life in a tumultuous political climate, marked by feelings of dread each morning. Having lost both parents and their family home, they grapple with the harsh reality of witnessing their country’s slide into authoritarianism, which targets their identity and values. The author often reflects on cherished memories and lessons from their maternal grandparents, who provided a loving foundation and instilled values of empathy, respect, and the importance of democracy.
The author recalls their grandparents’ influence during their childhood in a white, affluent town and their staunch belief in democratic ideals, contrasting sharply with the current political atmosphere defined by hate and division. They express frustration at being demonized for their empathetic values, and contemplate how to remain true to their principles amidst rising fascism and societal fear.
With lingering questions for their grandparents about coping with such overwhelming hatred and violence, the author acknowledges their struggles but is determined to fight for a better world in whatever time they have left, despite feeling lost in the face of a nation they once believed in.
